Tonight I called in for work. I really want to just disappear. I miss mom and just past the aviversery of Domino dying in my arms.
So alone

Days slowly drift .. heat makes it uncontrollable and some don’t seem to care anymore.

Can’t sure because cell towers don’t have internet. No power and 100 degrees. Have 1 battery left.

Storm hit and back yard is full of shingles. Side of house missing siding and rain gutter detached and bent like a cherry stem.
Really want to not deal with all this and just break the silence (neighborhood without power) and see who hears me detach my skull.

SI is getting bad again as mothers day rolls around. I’ve now stopped making plans past late June or July as for now I hope to be gone

Back to 1 shower a month it seems.

I’m only human till I break.

Miss my mom, house is empty, heart is cold. I’m so ready to cease

I see the light of the train.. the tunnel is to close to squeeze by.

The year many forgot. It hurts to be forgotten.