Plans, make them then cancel them

To be 100% CLEAR. This message doesn’t target a single individual. People ask me to do things and I get my hopes up and try to work them into my plans. Sometimes these are big plans that require hotel and travel or lunch meetings. I have been guilty the last 2 weeks due to a medical issue of clearing my calendar. To be fair I only had to cancel on 1 person with a few hours notice. I understand everyone has lives and children etc.. However if you chose to get my hopes up then crush them I will be hurt. I am officially giving up on trying to make plans with people. I’m tired of getting my hopes up to be canceled or crushed. I’m tired of being alone, but that seems to be how it’s ment. There are rare exceptions to this rule and those are whom I have lunch with at various times of the year. These are worked out in advance and I’ve never had these individuals cancel. I can think of 3 people and 2 are major PR representatives. I’m just sick to death of getting my hopes up and crushed. I posted a link this week where you can leave an anonymous comment to me. I have no clue who the person that said I was a fungus to KOTV and their glad I’m gone. They went as far to ask why I haven’t committed sucicide yet? Because I don’t know ow who posted it I have to take it at face value. I haven’t because I thought I had a support group of friends.