Today someone said something towards me that has made me question if fighting is worth it. This person is my direct supervisor and whom I’ll have to trust. I’m not sure I can do that.

Making a few detours to say see you next time.

Was told today I don’t matter. I once thought I didn’t and I reached a point where I thought I just might. Well fuck me. Apparently I’m not worth even a return txt.
I get it when my mom doesn’t txt me back. But for another that’s a different story.
Do I matter?

I’m without love.

I’ve started giving away computers, monitors family airlumes and stopped paying bills. Man what a weight off my shoulders. I want to goto Utah to hug someone and kiss their forehead and maybe a trip to 1 other place to thank them for being there for me.

Fair is over and have no desire for Christmas or holidays. I really have noone to talk to anymore. Even when I call friends I get sent to voicemail. I just wait to die.

Did I just pass it?

The hour glass is slowly emptied

This person has a letter in my safe for when I kill myself.