Today I question if I am ment to waste oxygen. Feeling unappreciated and that others would be better if I wasn’t in their way. Why do I do this every day? Endless cycle of reasons I have to not need reasons. Fuck it all.

Good f’n Monday morning.. Time to paint on a smile and be happy about 6 hours on-air not to mention 3 hours to collaborate on forecast options. This is a normal day that’s over hyped. Yes roads going to be slick (it is winter), Yes there will be wrecks (they allow female drivers), Yes it’s going to be so cold some parts of your anatomy move Noth to be warm. Is school out? As of this post if your school is north of I-40 don’t be a wuss because for now you’re going to need a big coat and deal with it. Lastly good morning world.

So today I start running late and have lunch with our owners.. Fun times.

I think it’s not fun that people judge me.

I’ve been so swamped with mom and work. I have taken a bit of leave from work and working for a few hours in the office and leaving by 6am. Quick summery.

Checked mom in Nov 14th and she came home Nov 21st and things were going good until December 9th when she started having issues so we re-admitted her to the CICU with a very bad infection and treated as MERSA until we got the blood cultures on the 11th to confirm it IS NOT MERSA but MSSA. This still made her classified as infectious and seperated from the others. On December 10th they put her back on the operating table and opened her up all the way again. Using TONS of antibiotic flush in several sites that were infected. Yesterday I transferred her to a LTAC (Long Term Acute Care) hospital for several weeks. Over this time I’ve been working on some days and going back to hospital at 5 or 6 AM. I’m back in the office today as the winter blast hits. If you are keeping up with my moms blog then you are all updated. I’ve had a brush with my past and am not going to rush these things. I’ll update again soon.. (before my birthday)

Well, this Saturday we get to know publicly the sex of .05%.

So I guess I need to work on my anti-baby allergies and think of all the stress 1% will be under as 1.5%. Brett is as happy as can be to learn to be a father as I adjust to support 1.5%.

So for voting I’m required to wear the color of shirt I think 0.5% is.

Tough choices lay ahead..

On a different note I think I’ve swept the last of the debris from my summer romance into Brittany’s vacuum in the wall of the salon. I’m doing weekly massages and trying to socialize more.. Hard to believe Madison is now 14. Some people are still convinced she’s my daughter. I have her card in my car but won’t cross paths soon to deliver it.

That’s all for today.. And the ghost is very faint, maybe it’s fog.
Be safe friends.
-j

AJ,

Welcome to WWS “weather widows syndrome” and the effect it has on relationships. I can say I loved you until you stopped giving me my space. When I asked I politely that you to back off twice you didn’t. Sadly this has caused unneeded stress in my life. If you wouldn’t be so pushy and forcing the “give me time” you would have gotten the hint.

Here’s how things are from now on:

You are blocked on Facebook, Not because of negative posts but I don’t want you in my life in any shape or form,

I request that you not attempt to contact me in any manner be it digital, physical or verbal. This is the only time I will request this. Any further communication will be taken as harassment and be dealt with as such.

I will be moving to a new pharmacy as will my family members so the chance of crossing paths is highly limited.

I wish you well in your future endeavors and pray your health issues are better controlled.

Finally, Please refrain from contacting me.

I wish you all the best on your family, school, work and health. I really do hope you hope you end up happy.

-jc