I’m about to hit 2,000 debit in 1 day. I’m sick of being alone and being told to auction stuff or sell things. Well fokes I’ll leave that to the estate people because currently I’m looking into ways to end this simulation.

I’m tired of being alone. The last girl I kissed was 8 years ago. Still never kisses a guy. I’ve tried to get into relationships but they don’t work. I’m alone. Cassie has a full family and by no fault of her own and my not bothering her and when I do comes across as I need something. Friends I never expected such as q2 years ago I help a kid I didn’t know in person over a few weeks and jump ahead to no. This kid donated a nice about to my OW. Amazing treating someone with respect even if they were 14 at the time that will come back to help.
My life is ruined, the only saving grace is to go thru and label stuff for different people that may be able to make money to cover my final expenses. For cremation.

Life is short, why not get up and leave the story of your life early? Nobody in all of time has said you have to stay till the end. It’s as easy as hugging those sitting with you and walking down the isle never to be seen alive again. Life always has an end. When it comes its 1 of 2 ways. You choose it or an unknown algorithm chooses it.
I’m more adapt to choosing myself. Maybe once this movie is done I can go revisit some of the places where I was once happy. From there figure out if I enjoyed them if so maybe I need to move. If not then I’ll store those happy thoughts for my worst times so as I’m dying I can die while smiling.

It’s been 8 years. Wow

Things bleak, an in place, waiting for right time to remove the safety net.

Do unicorns ever trot off and be caught in someone else’s net every get freed?

So while I was being attended to by doctors and going thru hell. My employer has decided I’m not worth paying sick leave. Guess thats a checkmark on the reasons to die list.

After being sick between medications and not being able to work because feeling of utter shit.
I’m making the choice to start moving important things to 1 location so when and if it comes time to get my prized possessions they will be easy to haul off.
Not a threat just an opinion.

Can someone direct me to an exit of this simulation? My last GF is married. There really wasn’t once before her. My best friends are married with kids and the peach is happy and I with them the best.
Studying the most successful methods of going away forever. Already distancing myself from those that may be hurt. While I have no plan maybe after some research I will.