2 steps today.. Drugs are not good or helping. Sample of what I take before bed. 200mg Benadryl 20mg Melatonin 2mg The new Drug IDGASAD 100mg Doxylamine Succinate 6mg Lunesta 10mg Ambien 240mg Geodon and 10mg Valerian root All taken with a double dose of nyquel.. One of these days I’ll find a med that […]

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So today work was not as stressful but it still has a level of more to do than less to do. I had a major software glitch cause me to pull my hair out for a few hours and after I got home this evening found the patch for it. I’m not about to goto […]

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The Subject line pretty much sums up my life right now. I’m done with my major projects a boss who always emails or calls me when I don’t fit his standards and almost never get a “Thanks” or anything anymore. I have other supervisors that are more appreciative. I started a new drug as I […]

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So now you can see i have a new drug in my mix its been interesting. At work I’ve been handling things better and getting more accomplished and still working out a few glitches. Tonight I got to fly in the helo for a few hours as we got to do some high school football […]

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So with all this stress shit with mom I’ve asked for advice and council from my doctor and her suggestion was xanax but opted for one in the same class thats less abuse able given my past. I have to admit I like this shit. I can handle the stress of mom and still not […]

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So a ton has happened but not enough to cause an update, from work stress going thru the roof with a new look, new system and everyone being touchy. Mom had a heart stress test yesterday and said it was not very fun. They have a meeting scheduled on next Wednesday for mom to see […]

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Greetings, So Yesterday at 1:00 we had the all awaited appointment with the heart surgeon and he was very nice and prompt. We had an 1:30 appointment and we were in a exam room with him by 1:35. I was impressed by his promptness. I recorded all the conversations so I could refer back to […]

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Someone asked me if I was depressed… I honestly don’t think I am. I might have been scared but not depressed I’ve been there and know that feeling.

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So today is Sunday and it just seems last week everything was all good and I was going to buy a new computer on Monday before the issues with mom. The week went into a tailspin and I don’t even remember what days I worked and what days I was even in town. It was […]

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So another day is over and all 6 members have all been sat down and advised of what we know which is not much. This trip wasn’t a fair well trip or a “I’m going to die trip” but more of a I need to relax and might as well do it while visiting with […]

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