Did you did wish me a Happy Holidays or Happy Birthday? Of the 60+ people I sent cards to this year via mail all personally written from Sweden to Japan and Germany. I received 0, I sent 40 personal Xmas cards only received 3. If I was to put my top 10 all time friends only 4 remembered.
I’m forgotten, I’m invisible, I’m not appreciated. I am upset I spent so much time and money in the last year for one reason “I wanted the person I sent a card to with a personal note to toss it somewhere. On the toughest day they face I hope they find it and smile knowing I cared when it may seem noone else did.” backfired.
I am breaking the mold and making a new rule.. There are no rules to rule me period.
I’m sick of one-way friends where I am only called, txt, paged or e-mailed when they need me. Not calling to talk to me or check on me or see what’s up.. They NEED ME. I sat for 3 days this last week eating a full sheet of birthday cake by myself while watching Tivo. Why? Everyone was busy with family or work while I was off.
I love my church but after 7 years I think many cracks have opened up for infectious people whom sole purpose is to use me and others I’ve seen for only their personal gain.
Several people have mentioned I should look into a singles cruise where nobody would know me and just maybe I would come out of my shell. I don’t seeing this happening. I think maybe a new church or auditing some churches might let my inner soul tell me if I’m in the right place with God.
This will mean by leaving Destiny for a season or good. I will be loosing Cassie and Jocelyn. You can’t even fathom how this hurts me.
I hope everyone has had a great week back to work.
Be safe & don’t worry I’m quite over everything personal now.
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