Today started with me going to church without my ADDHD meds. Glad Cassie was a team player. Church has changed since they went to 3 services every Sunday. 9,10:15,11:30 by doing this has cut 2 p&w songs and sermons seemed rushed and pastor Mike doesn’t set out of the box with a story that has nothing to do on topic; however this is what made Destiny so welcoming. We have now cycled through every service and none is longer or shorter than the other. I am really starting to look at what the church is offering fits my needs anymore? The biggest question is “Where to look and what to look for” and will/would 1% be up for a change? She isn’t the reason I goto church but she’s a big part of why I goto “this” church.
Granted I have had a major mental load and working 13hr days are nice on paydays but hell on personal life. I talked to someone that suggested I reactivate my match.com profile and try that. My answer is I don’t like mind games. Trust me I know them all, because I’ve payed attention to my past relationships and my friends. The rule I used to have was never initiate a relationship after Nov 1 – Jan 1 then Feb 1 – June 1. Sweeps and severe weather kill dating.
I have been trying to rebuild my friends group but aside from my core friends that will be there for me but I never have anything to offer them. I only have a few to choose from. At work there are some beautiful and talented ladies but each has their downsides.
Well I found a song today that is a little of the current version of me and former version. I posted the lyrics on FB but I’m afraid now that I have added church and not-friends from work I need to not rattle anyone and have them thinking I’m about to jump off a building. Even though I have access to the roof of the tallest building in 3 state area.
Ok this has been my combination April – May post.
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