Today

So I just posted my drug list in case I do OD someone knows what combo did me in. But today was busy I’m getting more stressed because my boss is. I feel sorry for him because he keeps his cool and never causes a stink and the last week the producers have been screwing him over. In turn screws me over. I really don’t have time to play on the net at work anymore for social stuff. I’ve gained some weight and have extream munchies from the new meds. I need to chill out of the food intake. Something small today that threw me into a rage was someone took all the pixie stix off a co-workers desk saying they would give me some. they fucking didn’t and that ruined my morning. I know something so small caused such a big deal w/me. I came home after installing some new software and touching base with a few co-workers to attempt a nap which I still never get. Its going to be cold as hell in the morning on my way to work so I need to make sure I have hoodie ready to wear. The things I like about hoodies are you can wear the same one day after day because the under shirt. I have 1 that I really dig while the other I has a target on it (station logo). I try to not gain attention to my employer when I’m screaming and cussing out someone. I’m in a very angry and bitter mood of recent and its getting worse as you know if you read thru the blog. I’m starting to get scared were this is leading. I know of 3 options that would seal the hole for a while but I doubt that any of those 3 would fill it soon. I wish I had a better outlook on things. I am what I now call depressed and sick of all the bullshit. I’ll state again I’m NOT trying to OD on anything the strongest drug I’m only doing 2mg over my prescribed dosage. Well Tomorrow will be a different day and I hope will start off right. Because tonight I’m off to bed at 4:0pm and going to goto bed alone with just a pillow to keep me company.
peace out